Dearest Beautiful Spirits,
Today began with me feeling…meh. Lately I’ve felt nothingness (is this even a word *chuckles*) perhaps because just knowing what you want to do with your life and actually doing it are two different things.
Unlike others, there’s never been that one thing I want to do every New Day; I want to awaken each day and do whatever my spirit feels like doing. I do not use lists or reminders, they aggravate me! I’m my best self when something pops into my head and I just start working on it.
Living as I do seems mostly unsettling, (especially to people who know me) yet there is a part of each person wishing for variety and adventure each day. I’ve been the person who followed rules; did as I was told and/or asked to do; diligent, loyal employee; nurturing mother, daughter, sister, friend; tried my best to live up to expectations of others; even allowed the words and opinions of others to dictate my decisions. Needless to say, I am no longer that person!
At this point in my life, FREEDOM is the most essential gift to me; it’s all I want, need and I will hold on to FREEDOM by any means necessary!
Just a note, FREEDOM can cause a reduction in people you’ve labeled as “friends”. Once I became empowered, people who were used to me saying yes to everything began to drop out of my life. Good news…people who truly love me are still with me, loving the authentic me even more than who I was pretending to be.
How do you honor yourself? The more we share, the more we inspire.
So today I embrace my space of nothingness and no longer feel anxious about spending time here. Nothingness doesn’t define who I am, it’s simply what I feel at times. Nothingness allows me to stop my mind from wandering to places that create personal hell for me. Nothingness allows my creative self to recharge; allows my spirit to find the next thing to make it smile. My space of nothingness affords opportunity for my intuition to blossom, leading me to make choices honoring my truest self.
Love, Peace & Blessings…