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Why You Must Put Yourself First

Greetings Beautiful Spirits,

I had to “spill thoughts” based upon messages I’ve received today; basic theme being: Why do I continue doing what makes other people happy and leaving myself empty?

I’ve experienced most of what each of these people are currently going through. “If I do more for “them”,” they” will finally love me.” “My happiness will come once this person/ that person is happy.” I may not love him/her now but the “right” one may never come along; I’m tired of being alone.” “My happiness comes from making sure everyone else is happy.” All lies we tell ourselves to avoid dealing with the only one with the power to ensure our happiness…ourselves.

I can state from experience that facing yourself is not an easy thing. It takes courage, willingness to identify and accept your role in how your life has been, understanding it’s never too late to create change and the wisdom to release what no longer serves your spirit and deprives you of happiness. Sometimes this requires drastic change such as ridding your life of negative influences (including loved ones), toxic behaviors (alcohol, drugs, sex etc.) and making a commitment to do whatever it takes to heal yourself even it means…hitting rock bottom.

Sure I’ve lost everything…I do mean everything but amidst chaos, I’m finding myself; the most important person in my life, the person I often left behind. I understand putting me first is not selfish but absolutely necessary to ensure my peace and happiness. Even with all I’ve been through, I will never accept that life is meant to be hard and happiness is merely an idealistic person’s dream. The Universe has created us as loving, happy beings; our decisions either intensify our ability to love and be happy or create discord. Until we accept responsibility for ourselves peace and happiness will be elusive.

As I recover, I notice my legs are no longer wobbly, my head is lifted higher than ever before and pain that made its home in my body has all but disappeared. I don’t have all of the answers and I will never be perfect but it’s not my job to be either; I’ve surrendered to the Universe and now I flow in the wind with infinite access to clarity, peace and happiness. Every moment will not be perfect and there will surely be moments of “darkness” ahead but I know they will pass same as the others and I will keep building and moving forward.

I’ve always felt more than most people and therefore labeled “too sensitive and weird”. It’s difficult living in a world feeling what other’s feel and often being misunderstood so throughout my life I’ve tried to “fit” in to alleviate some of the loneliness. Unfortunately trying to fit in always left me feeling worse than the loneliness so I don’t bother anymore. I can’t get rid of how I was created… I feel deeply and I’ve accepted this; I’m a free spirit and I’ve accepted it; I don’t enjoying focusing on one thing at a time and I’ve accepted this; I abhor lists, plans and rules but I’m organized, focused when I need to be and live righteously…I’ve accepted this; I will never be who anyone wants me to be or live up to the “potential” “they” expect me to and I’ve accepted this. I’m simply me and I cannot nor will I try to be anyone else again.

Are you ready to take the first step to learn who you are and what you need to be peaceful and happy? Are you ready to be honest with yourself? Are you ready to put yourself first? Your happiness cannot be found in anyone or anything outside of yourself; do the work and I promise you will not regret it!

As always I’m here because no one should have to journey alone…

Love, Peace & Blessings…

 SereneNSassy Soul

©2014 SereneNSassySoul

 

Spilled Thoughts October 2014

Anger and disappointment swirling around me each day me

Never offering encouragement or kindness

Always filling my head with negative thoughts; my heart with feelings betraying its very essence

The world is not an easy place to thrive in spiritually; there is so much garbage in the midst of so much beauty

I want to scream, have a tantrum, runaway or hide but what will that accomplish?

I want to leave this place and start anew…no memories, thought patterns, belief system…just me

Exploring, learning, creating…living and feeling free to be who I’ve been created to be…

 

Unfortunately it’s not my choice; not within my control!

 

I’ve been created for a purpose and apparently I must fulfill this purpose before moving on

Just wish there was a manual even with pages missing or even a partial map to help me navigate this journey

All I have now is faith…can’t see it, can’t hear it, can’t touch it; faith is something you know and feel within

Some days are better than others; building on the betters days helps maintain faith, clarity and courage

 

So many questions…few answers…

How can I cleanse then reboot my mind?

How can I create a powerful filter that catches any garbage attempting to enter my mind? How do I quickly and efficiently dispel any garbage that may get past the filter?

How can I use my mind to attract beautiful experiences/people and manifest abundance and prosperity?

How can I use my mind to support my authentic self?

How can I use my mind in conjunction with my innate gifts to identify and fulfill my divine purpose?

Someday it may all be clear but for now…

I will take each moment of each day as they come and do what I can until there’s nothing left…

 

© 2014 SereneNSassySoul

Storm In Storm Out

Runaway thoughts
Entangled emotions
Inexplicable feelings
Raw nerves
Prevalent numbness

Deep breath
Reign in thoughts
Create space of gratitude
Breathe deeply
Release tension
Scream
Cry

Smile
Close eyes softly
Inhale deeply
Exhale completely
Smile

Fresh start
Inner peace
Surrounded by beauty
Filled with gratitude
Courageous
Infinite possibilities await…

© 2014 SereneNSassy Soul

Lost and Alone

Depth of your pain unseen, unknown

Questions but no answers

No helping hands reaching out

Hollow, standard words do nothing to soothe your spirit

Hard to breathe

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Faith wavers, vanishing quickly

Internal dialogue unkind, tormenting

Mind, body, spirit filled with distress

Health begins to fade

Eyes swollen, irritated from fallen tears

Emotional pain numbing where vitality once reigned

Disheartened, untrusting yet longing for closeness

Ready to leave this world but unwilling to hurt others

World seems so dark, so cold; honesty and righteousness devalued

“Hole” is deep, darkness is overwhelming

Will light ever shine again?

© 2014 SereneNSassy Soul

Invisible Woman

They don’t hear her coming; they’ve never acknowledged her existence

She’s unassuming, content blending into the backgroundInvisble Woman

Her screams are silent; no one knows her pain; no one sees her tears fall

She’s disheartened by people; their words, their actions selfish and judgmental

She’s grown weary of society’s compassionless demeanor; attention to frivolous matters

Pain has become too heavy to bear; she’s been quiet for way too long

Forcefully erupting; they will no longer deny her purposeful presence

They will finally see and want to know her; she will only share herself with those who never cast a stone.

 

Invisible Woman represents all who are gifted, compassionate, and unique yet ignored simply because they don’t “fit the description”.

© 2014 SereneNSassy Soul

 

Empty Words; Missing Actions

My love affair with words began long ago…

 

Providing a bridge to a blissful place; other times sharing myself with the world

Creating smiles, comforting souls; creating sadness, tormenting souls

My energy defines their role; giving them power, bringing them to life

Experience is threatening my love affair with words; never imagined anything could come between us

People abuse words; creating meaningless statements and phrases

Often devoid of truth without considering consequences; selfish devoid of personal accountability

Invoking a false sense of security; creating deception and emptiness

Experience creates discord within our love affair; actions often tell a story contrary to words others speak

Empty words, missing actions threatening to consume this lifetime

Pain steadily transforming me into a “don’t tell me; show me” person; my adoration for words slowly drifting away

My brain says, “It’s what’s best to protect yourself”; my heart disagrees and pouts

Unsure of what will unfold, I can only hope that words and I will find a way to create and believe in magic once again.

© 2014 SereneNSassy Soul

Show me, don't tell me

Pride Hinders Growth

Greetings Beautiful Spirits!

Asking for help is difficult when you already assume it will not be available when you need it most. Today I’ve learned that it’s ok to ask for help and does not change who I am. I imagine not wanting to ask for help has something to do with my long battle with low-self esteem; today I understand that I am worthy of help. Asking for help does not mean I am weak or dependent; it simply means I’m not prideful or stubborn.

I used to think that as long as you help when you can, help will be available to you when you need it most; sort of “what goes around comes around”. I never imagined I would have to initiate help. By this I mean help will be present when you need it most however, it will not knock on your door; you must ask for it and open yourself to receive help.

This has been a most humbling lesson…whew! I’ve learned that help does not always come from those you’ve helped or would expect help to come from; help is disguised in many forms but is available if you believe you are worthy of receiving it.

I never imagined I would be in the space I’m in but now I understand that until the lesson is learned, moving on to a “better” space is impossible.

Have you ever found yourself needing help but were afraid or too proud to ask for it? I’d love to hear from you. Sharing your story will encourage and inspire others to ask for the help they need to keep moving forward.

As always, sending you all Love, Peace & blessings…

SereneNSassy Soul

 

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