Just when I was beginning to think unconditional love was an unrealistic, lifetime wish of mine…
I spoke to my Uncle Lee today after months of being out of touch for no particular reason other than the “old me” making a habit of hiding from the world. This must have been the longest phone connection we’ve shared ever; hearing his voice was the most beautiful sound I’ve heard in a long time (except for my bird friends awakening me each morning J). We caught up and laughed before I revealed what has been going on with me; leaving the job I had for 10 years, stepping far out of my comfort zone and finally getting in touch with my authentic self. I wasn’t sure how he would respond because others have either disagreed with my “evolution” or have not had anything to say; leading me to feel alone and unsupported.
Uncle Lee stayed true to who he has always been and said, “Do what you need to do to eat and keep a roof over your head but enjoy your life! Be happy and don’t let anything bother you.” Stunned for a few seconds before digesting what I had just heard; this is quite different from the sentiments of others. My heart immediately felt full, a smile crossed my lips and I took a deep breath before saying, “Uncle Lee, you don’t know how much your words of love and encouragement have given me just what I need to keep moving ahead. I’ve been longing (unbeknownst to me) to hear confirmation of what I was feeling. To know someone else believes in me.”
There he was my Uncle Lee supportive, loving and accepting me just as I am; unconditional love at its best. Now I understand that I should never have to wonder about how someone feels about me; love is effortlessly felt and seen.
I’ve always been in love with love but life experiences made me lock myself away and I taught myself to live without love (all the while still believing in love; just unwilling to experience it on any level). Until today I did not realize just how much I’ve been missing; this feeling is euphoric so why would I avoid having love in my life? Well until now I did not trust myself to know the difference between love and the facade of love; you know people pretending to love you so you can give them what they want. I guess it seemed easier to just build a fortress around myself. Funny thing about evolution…what you have become accustomed to is no longer acceptable. It’s time to release all of the pain, fear and thoughts of being in control; time to open myself to the world and trust my intuition and wisdom.
Love phases…a roller coaster ride of sorts but one thing is constant, when you truly love and accept yourself authentic love from others will be apparent and putting up walls is unnecessary.
Cheers to loving yourself and others, accepting what is and welcoming change into your life.
As always wishing you Love, Peace & Blessings…