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Why You Must Put Yourself First

Greetings Beautiful Spirits,

I had to “spill thoughts” based upon messages I’ve received today; basic theme being: Why do I continue doing what makes other people happy and leaving myself empty?

I’ve experienced most of what each of these people are currently going through. “If I do more for “them”,” they” will finally love me.” “My happiness will come once this person/ that person is happy.” I may not love him/her now but the “right” one may never come along; I’m tired of being alone.” “My happiness comes from making sure everyone else is happy.” All lies we tell ourselves to avoid dealing with the only one with the power to ensure our happiness…ourselves.

I can state from experience that facing yourself is not an easy thing. It takes courage, willingness to identify and accept your role in how your life has been, understanding it’s never too late to create change and the wisdom to release what no longer serves your spirit and deprives you of happiness. Sometimes this requires drastic change such as ridding your life of negative influences (including loved ones), toxic behaviors (alcohol, drugs, sex etc.) and making a commitment to do whatever it takes to heal yourself even it means…hitting rock bottom.

Sure I’ve lost everything…I do mean everything but amidst chaos, I’m finding myself; the most important person in my life, the person I often left behind. I understand putting me first is not selfish but absolutely necessary to ensure my peace and happiness. Even with all I’ve been through, I will never accept that life is meant to be hard and happiness is merely an idealistic person’s dream. The Universe has created us as loving, happy beings; our decisions either intensify our ability to love and be happy or create discord. Until we accept responsibility for ourselves peace and happiness will be elusive.

As I recover, I notice my legs are no longer wobbly, my head is lifted higher than ever before and pain that made its home in my body has all but disappeared. I don’t have all of the answers and I will never be perfect but it’s not my job to be either; I’ve surrendered to the Universe and now I flow in the wind with infinite access to clarity, peace and happiness. Every moment will not be perfect and there will surely be moments of “darkness” ahead but I know they will pass same as the others and I will keep building and moving forward.

I’ve always felt more than most people and therefore labeled “too sensitive and weird”. It’s difficult living in a world feeling what other’s feel and often being misunderstood so throughout my life I’ve tried to “fit” in to alleviate some of the loneliness. Unfortunately trying to fit in always left me feeling worse than the loneliness so I don’t bother anymore. I can’t get rid of how I was created… I feel deeply and I’ve accepted this; I’m a free spirit and I’ve accepted it; I don’t enjoying focusing on one thing at a time and I’ve accepted this; I abhor lists, plans and rules but I’m organized, focused when I need to be and live righteously…I’ve accepted this; I will never be who anyone wants me to be or live up to the “potential” “they” expect me to and I’ve accepted this. I’m simply me and I cannot nor will I try to be anyone else again.

Are you ready to take the first step to learn who you are and what you need to be peaceful and happy? Are you ready to be honest with yourself? Are you ready to put yourself first? Your happiness cannot be found in anyone or anything outside of yourself; do the work and I promise you will not regret it!

As always I’m here because no one should have to journey alone…

Love, Peace & Blessings…

 SereneNSassy Soul

©2014 SereneNSassySoul


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Spilled Thoughts October 2014

Anger and disappointment swirling around me each day me

Never offering encouragement or kindness

Always filling my head with negative thoughts; my heart with feelings betraying its very essence

The world is not an easy place to thrive in spiritually; there is so much garbage in the midst of so much beauty

I want to scream, have a tantrum, runaway or hide but what will that accomplish?

I want to leave this place and start anew…no memories, thought patterns, belief system…just me

Exploring, learning, creating…living and feeling free to be who I’ve been created to be…


Unfortunately it’s not my choice; not within my control!


I’ve been created for a purpose and apparently I must fulfill this purpose before moving on

Just wish there was a manual even with pages missing or even a partial map to help me navigate this journey

All I have now is faith…can’t see it, can’t hear it, can’t touch it; faith is something you know and feel within

Some days are better than others; building on the betters days helps maintain faith, clarity and courage


So many questions…few answers…

How can I cleanse then reboot my mind?

How can I create a powerful filter that catches any garbage attempting to enter my mind? How do I quickly and efficiently dispel any garbage that may get past the filter?

How can I use my mind to attract beautiful experiences/people and manifest abundance and prosperity?

How can I use my mind to support my authentic self?

How can I use my mind in conjunction with my innate gifts to identify and fulfill my divine purpose?

Someday it may all be clear but for now…

I will take each moment of each day as they come and do what I can until there’s nothing left…


© 2014 SereneNSassySoul