Author: SereneNSassySoul

On this New Day…

I awakened feeling groggy this morning; discomfort in my head, throat and stomach. I just feel pretty blah but I dragged myself to the job anyway just because I feel like I will miss the day’s pay if I didn’t. I realize this is opposite of honoring myself but I’ve made huge changes recently and I can admit to being concerned about lack of finances. If I don’t feel better I will go home; I’ve already promised myself… So here is the interesting parts of my morning… First I walked in to a spider web; why, why why do they insist on spinning webs in walkways? It’s always so finely spun that you don’t know you’re walking in to it until you feel it all over your face! (chuckles) I love spiders though, so I fussed a bit them asked them lovingly to please spin out of the walkway next time. Do you think they were listening? (chuckles) Secondly, I got into my car and as I look a the windshield, a baby tree frog …

Inhale…Exhale…

Pain felt so deeply it make your heart stop briefly, your head pound angrily Love felt so deeply warming your entire being, briefly taking your breath away Disappointment you feel when someone you love experiences turmoil and there’s nothing you can do to make it stop; one of the worse things you can ever experience…helplessness People around have no idea what you are processing inside, most don’t care; it’s not as if they can resolve your worries anyway… Tears refuse to fall; spirit refuses to accept defeat Something inside of you is fighting the darkness trying to take over; your will is stronger than anything that comes up against it You can feel this happening inside of you; there are no words to describe it The internal war is making you stronger and things that angered or saddened you melt away… After a while your guides help you understand and know what your spirit, heart knows…you are just fine You smile at this feeling a sense of inner peace spreading within you calming your entire …

Saying vs Meaning

Things people say and what they sometimes actually mean, albeit most times unintentionally… Be strong, be courageous, speak your mind, don’t take crap from anyone…just don’t be this way with me. Learn to say no and always put your needs first…just don’t be this way with me. Be all you can be, never stop chasing your dreams…just don’t surpass where I am in my life. I love and accept you just as you are…just maybe change this or that; just as long as you do things MY way. Always keep it real no matter what…just as long as what you say or do doesn’t make me uncomfortable. I’ve always got your back…just as long as someone doesn’t offer me a better deal. Honor yourself always and pay attention to what you feel…just get over it already and deal with it; life is hard! Sure you should have others friends that share your interests, I’m not jealous…just as long as when I call for you you come running. I’m not in competition with you at all, …

As I drove in this evening, the sky appeared as tumultuous as I’ve felt today; we’re usually in sync… It was dark, stormy looking, bright in some areas and difficult to read what may have been stirring in the clouds. At one point the Sun, as powerful as it is looked as if it was being overpowered by the clouds. Some of the clouds had sharp edges and some were super thick as if about to burst open releasing an amount of water we could never prepare ourselves for. Many of the clouds resembled mountains, bluish-white in appearance making me think of and miss home… After feeling as if I was riding waves most of this New Day, unsure of what I was processing within, I finally felt at peace as I gazed at the sky. In this instance I understood that I am never alone. The sky often mirrors my grief, my joy, my chaos… During periods of grief, chaos it storms and as the rain and vibrations from the thunder and lightning cleanse …

Love Rekindled

Writing was becoming tedious and downright undesirable, albeit my first love, our relationship was floundering with no reconciliation in sight. Writing was always therapeutic for me and allowed me to communicate much more efficiently than I’ve ever been able to do verbally. People who could not really relate to me when we spoke, could somehow understand the meaning behind my jumbled verbal communication after reading my words. Truthfully, I write what my heart and spirit feel at the time which is why long ago I decided against becoming a journalist; the words are not always available and topics cannot be chosen for me. Somewhere along the way I was convinced that writing should be a “business” for me because I have a way with words (whatever that means). I was desperate to leave the corporate world so I began writing what people claimed to be hot topics. I even learned how to use hash tags (well sort of, oh well) but it was difficult to create content and after a while I pretty much stopped writing all …

Gratitude for Seniors-Elders

To the Senior/Elder population that sometimes becomes neglected… To Ms Barbara (who may never read this but I want to celebrate her anyway) I am so grateful for your kindness and compassion. Although I wish she wasn’t still in the workforce, I’m grateful for the opportunity to know and love her. More importantly, as much as she still has going on in her life, she takes time to make sure that I’m ok. Yesterday she stayed around and gave me a jump because my car battery died. In the rain with no questions asked she simply offer to help me and took charge of the situation (no room for me to say no LoL). Once my care was “alive”again she hung around to make sure I was ok to drive off. Today, as soon as she arrived, she checked in with me to make sure I was ok and that my car was ok. She is amazing and it troubles me that others don’t seem to have much patience with her or do what they can to …

Spilled Thoughts – Injustice

I’ve been holding this in for a while now and I have to release this pent up frustration. Can I just yelllllllllll???  Can I just state say how disappointed I am that hotels in Cleveland surrounding the Cleveland Clinic are booked and not making special allowances for Cleveland Clinic patients… during the Republican Convention. Seriously is this what we’ve come to? Political antics take precedence over people who need to be cared for? I spoke with a sweet woman today caring for her husband who will have surgery July 14th and because of the convention she will have to switch hotels twice during their stay. It’s bad enough her husband’s health requires an invasive procedure to help him heal, to boot he and his wife are forced to stress about hotel accommodations? $$$$$$$$$$$$$$, when did they become more important than people? Each New Day I find the good in humanity and this world but some moments during each New Day are daunting. This particularly infuriates me; saddens me also because there is nothing I can …