Posted in Spilled Thoughts

It’s Just Me…

Here’s my thing…

I am who I am; I will always be who I am.

If you are intimidated by my presence, deal with it because that my Dear One, is YOUR problem NOT mine! Accept me as I am because I am NOT changing for you. Being true to myself if the highest form of honor; perhaps you should try it too.

Never again will I dim my light.

Never again will I attempt to lessen my intelligence.

Never again will keep quiet so you can feel better about yourself.

I am NOT here to make you feel good (or bad) about who you are, that my Dear is YOUR responsibility; perhaps you should take it seriously.

I hope you’ve enjoyed your run; it’s over now!

Be mindful of how you approach me, I am kind, compassionate and helpful but if your intentions are less than honorable I promise to be your fiercest teacher.

As always, with a smile in my heart,

Love, Peace & Blessings…

SereneNSassy Soul ~ 12/02/2017

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Posted in Spilled Thoughts

If you didn’t know…now you know!

Although I still find it somewhat difficult to accept that I’ve never met anyone who “gets” me, today I’ve made great progress not allowing it to adversely affect me. People often complain I am distant and out of touch with them but today I realized their opinion is based on their inability to understand how I connect and communicate. I will only admit to being different (not better than) from most people I’ve come across during this lifetime; if you have a problem with that, please see My Creator for additional information.

So here are some random facts about me…

I will never be a church going, religious person; I do believe in a Higher Power same as most but I don’t need or want anyone to be a part of our relationship.

I have a deep affinity for trees, animals, oceans, the sky, the Moon, the Sun, the Stars, each planet…

I love Seniors and Children and defend them passionately.

I love the idea of Love and everything that Love is! I know what Love smells like, tastes like, feels like, sounds like, looks like…

I’ve got a serious jones for music, REAL music; it helps me process what I feel and inspires me to keep feeling and creating. The instruments, the words of a song…it’s all magical to me.

Sheldon is my favorite character on The Big Bang Theory; yeppers socially inept and all, I love me some Sheldon Cooper!

I enjoy books, movies and shows about magic and even some vampires, but this doesn’t make me demonic-like!

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I love storms and the energy they bring; cleansing and release…

When I write I like to use ellipses … and semi-colons ; because the thoughts in my mind don’t usually have periods.

I’ve been collecting stones since I was about 4 years young; way before I knew the energetic properties of crystals and stones. Does this make me a trailblazer? *chuckles*

I love frogs; there’s no reason I just do, always have. Perhaps there’s something about their eyes…

When I finally own a nice piece of land, I will rescue animals, yeppers I love them so…

I still use an iphone 4S…because it still works and does everything I need it to do.

I don’t go to the doctor unless I have an infection that I can’t get rid of myself (sinus); I create herbal remedies for anything that ails me because…I CAN!

I’m an ambivert but mostly and introvert who needs lots of solitude or I go freaking madddddd… I can also identify with characteristics of an HSP, Empath, INFJ, INFP, Indigo, Claircognizant, Clairsentient, Life Path 8, Leo Sun, Leo Moon, Scorpio Ascendant blah blah blah, but I can be anything on any given day. I solely determine who I want to be each New Day because…I CAN!

It is my opinion that true Hip Hop is DEAD! No I don’t care to provide an explanation; just listen for yourself…

I wish Chris Brown wasn’t C-Breezy and Tey Songz wasn’t Trigga (sigh)

I hope people will learn to accept differences of others instead of hating…some day

I enjoy the show Bones and my favorite character is Hodgins; maybe because we both have curly hair? *chuckles* Nah, I love who his character is and how he loves Angie. I also love how Bones and Booth have always loved one another.

Two years at the same job and never pooped there once! *chuckles* my bladder and bowels, we have an understanding about public facilities.

I think I’m just about ready to buy a tiny house and go off the grid; well mostly…

Facebook irks me but I love Pinterest and Tumblr; my peeps are there J

Well there you have it folks; almost every quirky thing about me (I’m sure there are a few more).

To the ones I’ve met and shared moments with, I appreciate what you’ve added to my life.  I’m sending wishes for great love and peace as you continue during this lifetime and each one thereafter.

To the ones I will meet and make great strides with, thank you in advance; I appreciate all that you and all that you do.

 

Love, Peace & Blessings,

Indigo Scribe

Posted in Spilled Thoughts

Inhale…Exhale…

Pain felt so deeply it make your heart stop briefly, your head pound angrily

Love felt so deeply warming your entire being, briefly taking your breath away

Disappointment you feel when someone you love experiences turmoil and there’s nothing you can do to make it stop; one of the worse things you can ever experience…helplessness

People around have no idea what you are processing inside, most don’t care; it’s not as if they can resolve your worries anyway…

Tears refuse to fall; spirit refuses to accept defeat

Something inside of you is fighting the darkness trying to take over; your will is stronger than anything that comes up against it

You can feel this happening inside of you; there are no words to describe it

The internal war is making you stronger and things that angered or saddened you melt away…

After a while your guides help you understand and know what your spirit, heart knows…you are just fine

You smile at this feeling a sense of inner peace spreading within you calming your entire being

In this moment you realize the one you love will be just fine in time; at their own pace and in their own time

Rain begins to fall, you release the chaos allowing yourself to breathe freely once again; rain is always soothing and cleansing

After a while the Sun joins you in the first new moments of the rest of your life…

You can’t look back even if you wanted to; forward progress is the only way

Inhale, Exhale…Inhale, Exhale…Inhale, Exhale…

©2016 SereneNSassySoul

 

©2016 SereneNSassySoul

Posted in Inspirational Flow, Spilled Thoughts

Saying vs Meaning

Things people say and what they sometimes actually mean, albeit most times unintentionally…

Be strong, be courageous, speak your mind, don’t take crap from anyone…just don’t be this way with me.

Learn to say no and always put your needs first…just don’t be this way with me.

Be all you can be, never stop chasing your dreams…just don’t surpass where I am in my life.

I love and accept you just as you are…just maybe change this or that; just as long as you do things MY way.

Always keep it real no matter what…just as long as what you say or do doesn’t make me uncomfortable.

I’ve always got your back…just as long as someone doesn’t offer me a better deal.

Honor yourself always and pay attention to what you feel…just get over it already and deal with it; life is hard!

Sure you should have others friends that share your interests, I’m not jealous…just as long as when I call for you you come running.

I’m not in competition with you at all, you are my friend…just as long as I don’t see a chance to shine and leave you in the dust!

You are free to do as you please, live your life…just as long as you allow me to control the parts I want to.

There’s no way you can actually make that work…I live my life full of fear, how dare you be brave trying to achieve your goals.

I remember spending so much time seeking approval from various people in my life, yet wondering why it seemed as though I needed to constantly prove myself to have their love. I lost so much of myself at one point, looking in the mirror staring at a stranger. Always trying to please those whose approval I wanted, thought I needed. Always  trying to be the obedient and loyal daughter, employee, girlfriend/wife…

Although I’ve always walked to the beat of my own drum, I craved acceptance from people I loved; at the very least for them to love and accept me same as I felt for them. I realize they all loved me as best as they could. People often don’t realize how their words/actions may adversely affect someone whether intentional or not. Replacing judgement and/or a need to control with mindfulness when connecting with others will go a long way with improving communication within any relationship.

Approval of anyone outside of yourself should never be necessary for your to make your own choices. Honor yourself always by trusting what you feel about a situation/person and make your choice based on this not what someone else may think; no matter who the person is. You are NOT your mother or father, sister or brother… therefore you are not required to make the decisions they would make.

I always hear the term “follow your heart”… it’s usually spoken by people who are successful in their chosen profession, relationships, spiritual, personal self etc. and it used to aggravate me until now…

Now, at this very moment I understand the benefits of following your heart. Your heart is your truest, highest self. It’s the part of you that you’ve pushed away and perhaps buried because of life experienced that were uncomfortable. It’s the part you used to consult before you did anything when you were a child. It’s the part of you that always knows what  and who is best for you. It’s your compass and it’s your guru; the part of you that contains all of the answers you need.

My Dear, the answers you seek, the answers you need are only contained within you, never outside of you. Others can offer tidbits, maybe even a starting point for you but you must go deep within to access the answers that will assist with living the life you were created to live.

Today I don’t rely on what others think or any unsolicited advice they may give unless it resonates with me (which for me means it comes from a higher Source). I don’t wait for approval from anyone before I make a decision about MY life. I don’t allow what people say about me affect who I am. The only person that stands in my way or prevents me from doing anything is me… I am the only challenge I face from time to time; even facing myself is becoming easier each day.

***Cheers to honoring yourself and living the life you know you are meant to live.***

Wishing you all great Love, Peace & Blessings…

SereneNSassySoul

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Posted in Perspectives
As I drove in this evening, the sky appeared as tumultuous as I’ve felt today; we’re usually in sync…
It was dark, stormy looking, bright in some areas and difficult to read what may have been stirring in the clouds. At one point the Sun, as powerful as it is looked as if it was being overpowered by the clouds. Some of the clouds had sharp edges and some were super thick as if about to burst open releasing an amount of water we could never prepare ourselves for. Many of the clouds resembled mountains, bluish-white in appearance making me think of and miss home…
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After feeling as if I was riding waves most of this New Day, unsure of what I was processing within, I finally felt at peace as I gazed at the sky. In this instance I understood that I am never alone. The sky often mirrors my grief, my joy, my chaos… During periods of grief, chaos it storms and as the rain and vibrations from the thunder and lightning cleanse the Earth, my heart, my spirit are also cleansed making way for a clear sky…joy.
I’m known as the girl who walks in between the raindrops because when it rains I seldom use an umbrella, instead I welcome beautiful, healing energy of the rain.
Before leaving this morning I felt a pull in my heart center but it was not painful, more like making room for new beginning (makes sense since New Moon cycle has just completed); I wasn’t worried. At some point this afternoon the pulled became uncomfortable and I knew it wasn’t about new beginning, instead I allowed something meaningless to trouble me. It wasn’t until I met with the Sky that I was able to understand, work through it and release the uncomfortable feeling in my heart center. No storm but the rain came just as I began to release the negative energy.
New beginning is NOT synonymous for “easy process” and often something within you mourns the “old” whether good, bad or indifferent. It’s up to you to be mindful of this and keep moving forward as you embrace your new beginning. I don’t know what lies ahead (our Universe still refuses to provide a map to navigate life LoL) but I refuse to just tread water and stay where I am, I refuse to deny myself opportunities to experience and grow, I refuse to settle for a lesser life and best of all… I refuse to give up on ME!
Keep moving forward Beautiful Spirits!
Sending you Love, Peace & Blessings
SereneNSassySoul
Posted in Perspectives

Love Rekindled

Writing was becoming tedious and downright undesirable, albeit my first love, our relationship was floundering with no reconciliation in sight. Writing was always therapeutic for me and allowed me to communicate much more efficiently than I’ve ever been able to do verbally. People who could not really relate to me when we spoke, could somehow understand the meaning behind my jumbled verbal communication after reading my words.
Truthfully, I write what my heart and spirit feel at the time which is why long ago I decided against becoming a journalist; the words are not always available and topics cannot be chosen for me.
Somewhere along the way I was convinced that writing should be a “business” for me because I have a way with words (whatever that means). I was desperate to leave the corporate world so I began writing what people claimed to be hot topics. I even learned how to use hash tags (well sort of, oh well) but it was difficult to create content and after a while I pretty much stopped writing all together. Uninspired, suffering from a creative drought, not being true to myself and still not gaining the readership “they” claimed I would if only I would change my content and stop using “fancy words” (what the hell are fancy words?), my relationship with writing seemed to be ending…
Although I’d invested most of my life to the one thing I could always count on, I was ready to give up; why bother no one reads anyway? As always, the Universe had other plans and recently, I’ve been receiving the same message to my question, “What is my purpose and how can I fulfill this purpose?” Write, share yourself, inspire, encourage, support…Do not focus on likes/dislikes, promotional gimmicks or the number of “followers” you gain/lose, just write! The ones who can learn from your words will find them. Just write, write from your heart; use the gift you were given and you will fulfill your purpose. Over and over again the Universe delivered this message to me but until now I could not connect all of the dots.
It was difficult to stay motivated without support, inspiration, feedback (good, bad, indifferent; it’s all important). Now I understand, what matters most is for ME to support my work, never stop searching for inspiration and keep myself motivated. Well writing and I have rekindled our love affair and the blockage in my heart has been scraped away…
It’s never been about anyone else, writing has always been for me; it’s my thing, my very first and truest love. When I write all is right with the world; when I’m done whatever troubles I may have had are released at the end. Writing is my comfort, my therapy, my soul food, my expression, my friend… Giving up our relationship is PREPOSTEROUS but it just seemed easier than trying to figure out what the hell was going on and cheaper than visiting a therapist (LoL).
I share this to say, be true to yourself; don’t deny yourself anything that feels right because it may not fit into what the rest of the world is doing. Denying any part of yourself, ignoring messages of your spirit, your heart will kill you slowly. We are not meant to live lesser lives; we have been created to flourish, use our gifts to create positive ripples in this world and most of all to fulfill our purpose.
As always, Love, Peace & Blessings…
SereneNSassySoul